ROSY RENES

It's amazing how 2019 has ended. Seems like both 2018 & 2019 were filled with an unexpected twist of events. Some months flew by quickly and some months drag on very, very slowly, to the point where it felt like decades. During many moments, time felt like it was turning backwards, and I could feel my kindergarten self, present like I hadn't changed at all. Like I had to rediscover myself all over again from scratch. "Your past makes you who you are, yet it does not define you." I did two life-related workshops this year, they're both by Mwara.Co . It's radical for me since I'm not one to partake in life-coach seminars nor reading motivational books. But times were dire and I thought, "Why not? I could use some help." The first workshop was titled "Design Your Life Journey", and the aim was to find out what our true calling in life, so whenever we feel like we're lost, we'll always have that lighthouse that can guid

Welcome to post-grad life, one year later! I had planned to write about my graduation day ever since it happened, but I decided that I want to do it a year later, so I can reminisce about that day. I'm going to divide the story into several parts and end it with some of my thoughts about life, exactly one year later. The Prep About two or three months prior to my graduation event, I had created an expense plan for all the things I would need such as makeup, clothes, accommodation, etc. I actually researched and planned carefully on how I want to look during the event, and what things I would need to achieve that with a tight budget (yes, I was only a part-timer and my salary was only enough to buy myself meals not even for a whole month). I thought long and hard about should I just do my own makeup or should I get it done professionally. After some consultation with my mom, she suggested that I asked Adyuta (my cousin) to do my makeup. She had never done makeup for graduatio

I went to Cirebon last September, to visit my Aunt (who was recovering from her diabetes attack) and my Grandfather. I stayed there for a week. There are a lot of things I noticed during that time. Let's start with the huge mango tree my late Grandmother had planted in front of my Grandfather's bedroom window, which had been cut down. I understand Grandfather's reasons for cutting down the tree, despite my Aunt's objections. It was dangerous to keep the tree since on its way of collapsing, but I also think it's unnecessary to get rid of it completely. Somehow it felt like erasing Grandmother's memories. Or maybe Grandfather was just trying to deal with his grief, maybe the tree reminded him of Grandmother every time he looked at it. [ With the absence of the tree, the light came in ] Another revelation I had during the trip was about basic traits, from my father's side of the family. My father and his siblings are all equally obstinate, messy, indiffe

[ I was walking down the path ] "All that we see or seem is but a dream within a dream." - Edgar Allan Poe Hullo, hullo. October has finally arrived again. I'd like to share a piece of art that I had just finished today (finally). It was a tribute to a dream I once had, the scenery was a serene afternoon near a lake, with gorgeous, blooming bougainvillaeas to my left and right. Well, of course, the scenery was prettier than pictured above, but, oh, well, I've tried. Dreams, especially the ones occurred during sleep, can be obscure. It makes me wonder if there are any specific message or meaning that it tries to convey. I'm no expert in dreams, and I never really read any theories about them, but still, a lot of times I try to guess the meaning. The dream above is an example. I had a job interview and it went well. Several days later, I dreamed of strolling nearby a lake, in a beautiful, serene afternoon. There were bougainvillaeas along the walls. I f

Hi. I am officially 23 now! I don't have a specific topic to talk about in this post, but I have some stories to tell. Last Saturday my mom and I went to a free yoga class. We were required to register two days prior to the class. The class was at 8 in the morning, since we didn't want to be late, we went early. Arrived safely at 7 and we were the first ones to get there. It was raining, so the class was delayed. While waiting to come in to the class, a staff was checking each participant's attendance. It was finally our turn, but our names weren't there. I had registered but didn't got a reply, my mom had also registered but she got wait-listed, she agreed and also didn't get a reply. It turned out, the rule was that we need to get a reply first, an attendance number and then we can attend the free class. But the staff was kind enough to told us to wait while she checks with the supervisor. Some moments later, the staff told us since we've come all the

Initially I wanted to do 22 things I learned in 22, but since next Wednesday I will turn 23, I decided to list some things I have learned during my existence in this world for 23 years. You may or may not agree with me, but here we go. Life is not what you expected I like making plans, no, I LOVE it when everything is planned out thoroughly and went according to it. But alas, mishap and tragedy happen, and the great plan is doomed. Yes, yes, God always have bigger and better plan than ours and I have learned to accept that, even though grumpy at times. It’s more about the next step, what to do and how to fix that mishap. True (and good) friends are hard to find And once you find them, they're worth fighting for. Some people have hidden motives and are two-faced There was a time when I assumed that everyone is good and kind. When someone ask for help, I would try my best to help them with whatever they need. On several cases, I only realized that they were using me after

First, let me start with a quote. In spite of everything, I shall rise again; I will take up my pencil, which I have forsake in my great discouragement, and I will go on with my drawing. - Van Gogh Well, I love that quote. It fuels me to continue everything after a long halt. Let's see, ah, right. My grandma passed away, so I have to go to Cirebon for her funeral. Also I was busy preparing for my job application and interview. Thank you for staying with me and I'm sorry I've been away, again. I have ideas for this blog, but I was confused on how to create a post concept with better quality. My thoughts are always on discussion about all sorts of things, but I'm wondering if they're boring to put here, or if they're cohesive enough to be made into a whole, well, understandable story. Plus, there are some things I can't really put here since for me it's too personal(?). Hell, I don't even post that much on social media. My life is not for publ