ROSY RENES

I'm sorry, I wrote so many letters here because I don't have anyone else to write to. Here we go. To: Le Petit Prince by Antoine de Saint-Exup é ry Saturday night, 22-3-2014 Dear Little Prince, Good day! Last Thursday I finished reading your story in the book. It's a gentle book, really touching, and filled with real values.  I agree with what the fox says, that you can only see things clearly with your heart, and that what is important is invisible to the eye. So, I concluded, that the important things can only be seen clearly if you use your heart . But please tell me, how can you do it? I really need to see things clearly right now because I seemed to keep repeating the same mistakes. I tried not to, but the pattern of the mistakes is still the same. Why am I keep repeating the same mistakes? And I hate to feel so melancholic, so blue, but I can't help it.  Curhat? Yeah. Pardon me, but I guess I just need someone that is unreal to deal with my unrealis...

Honestly, it's fun to be a part of a group, to be among friends you know. You'll feel safe and sound. But when you're all alone, either because you're pulling away or being left behind, you'll feel emptiness. You'll feel empty, lonely and sad. But what's interesting from being all alone, is that you'll get some brand new different perspective and a rare opportunity to know yourself better. And you will learn to handle your thoughts and emotions better in public. Plus, some kind of happiness to be free to be yourself. So, I think, even though right now I feel empty, as if I'm left behind, maybe, being alone isn't so bad after all.

Ini cerita kejadian beneran, udah agak lama, beberapa minggu yang lalu. Aku liat sendiri langsung di TKP. Meskipun cuma jadi pengamat dan pencerita, tapi tiap keinget tetap rasanya hati miris. Ini. S atu sore hari, di Kenichi Riau, aku ke sana untuk cari makan, karena sudah kelaparan akut dan memang habis itu aku ada Kumon. Dan aku ingat itu hari sekolah karena pas kejadian aku pakai seragam. Setelah taro tas di salah satu meja, aku ikut antri di kasir paling ujung kanan. Dan memang saat itu lagi jam penuh, banyak orang yang makan siangnya ngaret sampai jam 3/4an, including me. Sambil nungguin antrian, aku liat-liat kanan kiri.  Awalnya sih ga ngeh, cuman pas liat ada anak perempuan sekitar kelas 1/2 SD, pake sandal, baju tangan pendek, dan dikerudung, dan juga ga bisa diem, cuma mikir, "Ini anak siapa sih? Perasaan dari tadi nyelap-nyelip ga jelas di antrian." Terus pas diliat lagi, anak itu nyempil-nyempil di depan, ada sama orang terus ada anak-anak juga, dan aku ...

[When we're babies] [As kids] [Now, teens]

Yes, I'm going to complain in this post. Tentang buku paket PKn. 1. Kenapa sih buku paket Pkn itu bahasanya pada ribet-ribet? Gak to the point aja gitu? Pusing tau bacanya, ngerti juga nggak. Ini nih salah satu faktor penyebab nilai kewarganegaraan merosot, jangan heran negerinya carut-marut macam sekarang. 2. Ngejelasinnya juga jangan muter-muter, yang ngurut. Karena di buku paket pinjaman dari sekolah, materinya gak berurutan, dan bercabang kemana-mana. 3. Batasan antar subbab rancu, kabur. 4. Penjelasannya ga perlu dikaji dari pemahaman metafisika kan? Pake penjelasan yang dikaji dari pemahaman yang simple dan logis aja deh. Ini gara-garanya dikasih THR Pkn disuruh ngerangkum, rangkum bab 1, banyak. Pas dibaca, itu penjelasannya rumit, muter-muter ga jelas.

Selamat ulang tahun Indonesia! Yang ke-68. Tadi aku sama Ibu baru aja pasang bendera di depan rumah. Mudah-mudahan di umur yang ke-68 ini korupsi tamat, rakyatnya lebih mudah diatur, pemerintahannya ga busuk-egois-cuekbebek, dan yang paling penting, bisa mengatasi permasalahan negerinya. Jadi tidak menyia-nyiakan perjuangan para pahlawan. Merdeka!

To: An elementary friend of mine From: Renes Dear friend, How are you doing? Fine, I hope. You're already in college, in a well-known university. Congratulations! And from what I've read on your tumblr, you're changing. You said that you've become an introvert . Well, I was one, and still am. I know that time flies, and during that time people change. And I know very well I haven't seen you for quite some time, like 6 or 7 years probably. You said that I'm your friend , but from the last chat, I feared that maybe I'm going to lose a good friend because you've grown to be way too introvert, and you've build a big, tall, thick walls around yourself, keeping everything inside. You also said that nobody heard you, that you feel like you wanted to scream out loud, that you were going to explode. You know what? I've been in your position, in your exact situation now. One thing, if you feel like no one heard you, or no one understands you, remem...