ROSY RENES

Hi. If you've been reading my blog for a long time, you would know that I just recently changed everything about my blog. I would like to explain the reasons behind these changes. Previously my blog name was ranarenerenga.blogspot.com and titled renesje. Well, ranarenerenga is actually my full name, but I took a letter out for the last two words (or names?) because I ran out of ideas for blog names. Renesje is actually a combination of all of my nicknames that my friends and families use to call me: Nes, Ren, Rene, Nene, Nesje, Renes, etc. I used my name because I like it, it's unique and it has a very good meaning. The tagline was, "what I see, what I think about the world" because I wrote my thoughts on the things I see in my life at that time. I was very, very idealistic (still am, but more toned down and realistic). Life happens, I went MIA for 2 years and I've changed. I felt that my blog name, title and tagline doesn't resonate with me anymore.

Look here in the mirror A girl, long gone forgotten With lips that quiver and a heart that shivers Alone pondering, wondering Is it, love or is it loathe? The answer lies somewhere in the depths of her own reflection Buried underneath the scars,  and ghosts of the past.

A while ago, I read a post with pictures talking about a woman's life post-graduate. I forgot who created it, but I saw it on my timeline. With a fairytale-like storyline, it explains what we as girls/women will face after we graduated from college. In that story, we are the princess holding a balloon of dreams, trapped in a castle of responsibilities (if I'm not mistaken) with our insecurities as a dragon who guards the castle preventing us from escaping. Eventually, we let go of the balloons. We got so desperate that we hoped a prince charming comes along to rescue us. But we forgot one thing, we are crowned with education. We forgot that we are strong and smart enough to be our own saviour. We forgot that we are not a damsel in distress. Long story short, all we have to do post-grad, are  overcome our responsibilities, conquer our insecurities and chase our dreams . Super true and it's an awesome mantra to get me through some rough days. BUT, I admit, it&#